Not sleeping much tonight. So many thoughts, imagining so many things.
Days are ok for the most part. Elie’s cousins are in town for spring break. So great to see them all together laughing and happy. Its infinitely easier to get through each day without wallowing in the details and the future. Just being here for now. Talking about anything and everything as we play with Elie.
Nights are a different story. If I manage to not wake up, I can make it. Tonight though, I’m wide awake and theres no present to distract you in the dark. That’s when the future crawls in.